A Cry of Hope...

The project is about to be concluded,
All the hardwork will be put to the test,
And this vessel is almost empty...
Drained of all it's energy, it's identity...

For awhile, everything seems to move in fast forward,
And there I am, in the middle of all the commotion,
An empty vessel, drained of all its essence,
And then time seems to move in slow motion,

A light shines brightly,
It beckons me as I reach out my hand,
My feet left the ground,
And I am taken away...

Fredy and Gitta

I would like to say to Fredy and Gitta:

Congratulations on your marriage. I am truly happy for the both of you. Good luck, and remember: enjoy your lives. Never forget to often stop and smell the roses. Keep in touch!

In between...

I could not stay in the Light,
for it's ray is too bright that it blinds me
I could not stay in the Dark,
for the absence of light deprived me of my sight

O Wind, lessen thy rage!
lest I would be taken away, flown to some foreign land,
show kindness, and bless me with your soft breeze,
on a warm sunny day, on a meadow where I stay

Mighty sea, calm your storm!
grant me passage through your madness,
carry me between continents with your kind waves,
and let me continue my journey with peace of mind

Let me walk the path of life in peace,
for I am weary, and in need of guidance,
O Lord, show me the way...

Is This Life? Cuz it sucks...

...Yeah, sure, there's no one else to blame but myself. Working is not as great as they made it up to be. Sure, you get your own income (no more asking mommy to buy me candies), and you get to meet new people (some are complete angels, some are so-so, and some seemed to come from the deepest pits of hell), and you learn new stuff ('the managers are having a meeting, let's wrap this up and go home!'...go figure...)

Now, this is where the problem lies.

A stable life. Doing the same thing, from one day to another (BonQ, I feel ya buddy, I feel ya!). Seeing the same people from one day to another. Mad season it is, BonQ. Mad season it is indeed. And I'm losing my ability to come up with ideas for my writing. All I could do is just whine about it.

And yes, there's no one else to blame but myself.


But, man, I'm not dead yet! And while I'm still breathing, I ain't gonna succumb to boring, routine, corporate life. I need to find something else, something that I love to do. Something...

I guess life is about searching...

Anyways, I lost my appetite for philosophy...Just being practical lately. And I hate myself for that. I just hope it's not a permanent thing.

So, I just gonna post this shitty writing, but


MEIMEI, BONQ, DIDE, I AIN'T DEAD YET. WE AIN'T DEAD YET. KEEP ON WRITING, OKAY.

Welcoming New Year 2006

Heh,
Another year's passed. So what's new? Just another change in the last digit of the year's number, that is. But of course there's more to it than just a digit change. So, to honor the tradition that our forefathers have taught is, I would like to give you:



2005, a year in review. (It's kinda predictable, huh?)

In any case, let me give you a month-by-month summary:

January 2005

• Graduated (Yay!)
• Got a job (Double yay! Got my mom off my back about finding something to do besides checking the content of her wallet and, of course, finally getting my own money!)
• Enjoying the last days of my freedom from responsibilities...(something that I will come to miss...)

February 2005

• Started work on the 1st
• Bored to death due to lack of task
• Getting paid for nothing (see bullet point 2 above)

March 2005

• See February's point number 2
• See February's point number 3

April

• See March's point number 2
• See March's point number 3
• Finally, a project's heading my way

May

• New project! Giddy...
• Finding out the deadline...not so giddy...
• Finally, real work
• Feel bad about leaving a girl behind on a date...(well, it was technically NOT a date, but...well you know how it is, and she was NOT alone, lotsa other friends, she was not lonely...so I'm in the cool...right? Right?)

June

• Project's picking up pace, beginning to think whether I'm really up for it...
• Got a couple of days' worth of work with the PMO (curious what PMO is? I ain't telling...trust me it's not worth knowing about)
• Getting closer to a girl (wanna know who? See point number 4 in May)

July

• Hooked up with the girl (Yay!... See point number 3 in June)
• Work's started killing me
• More work
• See previous point

August

• Started seeing pink elephants in the office room
• More work
• See previous point
• And see also February, March and April...getting paid for nothing is bliss...

September

• Pink elephants started disappearing
• More work's coming my way
• I started missing the pink elephants

October

• Work
• Beginning to think that I'm losing my personal life...

November

• More Work
• Give trainings to users

December

• Birthday...and trainings.
• More Work
• More More Work
• Inches away from completely losing it....

All in all, I must say that it's been a good year...don't you think so?

Lion? Witch? Wardrobe? What the...?

Movie Review
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe
Produced by Disney
Original Story by C. S. Lewis

At the time of this writing, I have not yet read C. S. Lewis' book on which the movie was based on. Thus, I was not able to express my views on the comparison between the two medium: movie and book. And this is, in my opinion, the movie's most critical weakness. After watching the movie, I thought back and felt that there was a lot of missing link in the storyline. A lack of continuity, a lack of cause and effect. How did the wardrobe came to be? What was the true role of the professor in the story? Who was Aslan? But then again, since I have not yet read the book, I could not say for sure whether these things were explained in the book. But for sure, they were not explained during the movie.

However, even though I felt that there were holes, a lack of continuity as I have mentioned above, in the storyline, I would like to say that the way the story was told to the audience was excellent. And how does a movie tells a story? We shall discuss the matter on several points.

For the first point I would like to discuss about the music. The first thing I noticed when I started watching the movie was the music composer: Harry Gregson-Williams. Being a fan of the Metal Gear Solid video game series, I came to know Harry Gregson-Williams' work quite well since he started working for the MGS series from the second entry in the series: Metal Gear Solid 2: Sons of Liberty. Movie fanatics might also recognize him for his work in the movie 'Enemy of the State'. His scores are always dramatic and they are able to steer the audience's mood in the right direction. And that was the case in Narnia: it didn't disappoint. It even exceeded my expectation. This was due to my not realizing in the first place that Gregson-Williams was responsible for the musical score in the movie. It was a pleasant surprise. Every single musical score fits the scene, and it plays the audience's mood very well. My mood, to be exact. And every single one of them is beautiful to listen to. When the first musical score started playing I was instantly carried away. And that is what a story is all about: to carry you away to a distant land.

The second point I would like to discuss is the cinematography. Simply put, each scene in the movie was beautifully done. The camera angle of each scene feels just right. They tell the story in dramatic ways. Case in point: the sacrifice scene. I would not divulge the details for fear of spoiling the story for those who have not yet read the book or watched the movie. I would like to say that this is one of the scenes I loved most in the movie. And the colors were vibrant, full of life. Just like a good picture story book, this movie is full of wonderful scenes and lively colors.

The third point I would like to bring into the spotlight is the acting. The actors and actresses playing the Pevensies are not famous actors/actresses. But their acting in the movie was above average. A bit lacking in charisma, however, but they delivered an above average, believable performance. In my personal opinion, Georgie Henley (Lucy Pevensie) gave the best performance out of the four. Tilda Swinton, playing as the cruel and heartless White Witch, gave an excellent performance. It could be said that she almost dominates the movie if it weren't for one character: Aslan. Aslan the Lion. Brought to life by the help of the magic that is CGI, and given charisma through the voice acting of Liam Neeson. For every single time Aslan enters the scene, he dominates it straight away.

So, it all comes down to: is it worth watching? Yes, it is. Watch this movie for its beautiful cinematography, beautiful music, and above average performances by it's actors and actresses. It is a beautiful movie, incomplete yet entertaining. Read the book to enjoy the fullness, completeness, of the story.

COLD

Why can’t I smile when others smile?
Why can’t I laugh when others laugh?
Why can’t I cry when others cry?

Why can’t I share a piece of my emotions when others beg for it?

I’m just stone cold.